two days in a row... wow.

"you're not your job. you're not how much money you have in the bank. you're not the car you drive. you're not the contents of your wallet. you're not your fucking khakis." -fight club

right now, i don't care that i'm poor and will probably always be poor. yeah, yeah, i know it's relative anyway.. i'm not poor in a global sense, but here in the good old USA, i am. i can barely pay my bills, my savings account is always empty; i truely live paycheck-to-paycheck.

so today i feel ok about how much money i have or don't have. i'm not jealous of my co-workers' shiny new laptops, or my friend's high-end digital video cameras, or high-schoolers with iphones. i'm content being a dad to some boys and a spouse to my girl.

i promise that by tomorrow i'll be back to myself. but i hope not.

"You buy furniture. You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life. Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you're satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you've got your sofa issue handled. Then the right set of dishes. Then the perfect bed. The drapes. The rug. Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you." - chuck palahniuk